I remember a couple of years ago, before I allowed sanity to enter my life through Jesus, ignorant as I was, every day that passed was a reminder of a need I had but did not know what it was. Growing up in church and even serving amongst Christian folk church left me with a feeling so deep, isolated and different. It felt so real and alive in me, young as I was, and kind of a mirror that showed me the person I was meant to be, the character I desired assume. Those were the days when I unknowingly set out to search for that which was missing, the very thought that troubled the peace of my thoughts and feelings, that which became the darkness of the always corrupted the glimpse of light that occasionally shined on my path of hope. I spent many days going through self introspection. Now the biggest problem of them all was acting on how I felt on the inside. In my heart I dug for the renewal and elevation of my being because I had no peace. I blamed everyone around me for my insecurities and failures but even after doing so, my life remained haunted, so to say. The day I surrendered all to him my all, everything fell into place. My heart was indeed the central world of my universe. Jesus Christ, the son of the living God now dwelt in me.
Chido
My heart is a symbol of oneness with God, the symbol of my past, present and future, for he has pieced it with love and laughter. Through Jesus’ presence in me He carries me in the midst of it all, though I may stumble and fall every day, the essence of my heart lifts me up high. There is a thought in my mind right now, the longer I hold on to it the more I dwell into it, the more life I give to it and it sure does become so real. My heart beats for the thought that has changed it and made it the central part of my universe, the beauty of my feelings that has always longed for the touch of the God who is my life. The joy you see in me is the least of the happiness I feel inside my heart.
You can be a Christian and still have something missing, for it lives in the deepest and secretive place of your heart, you need to go deeper than every day, introspect and find if you really need all the things occupy most of your time. Don’t waste time thinking about the impossible but begin acting on the possible. Sometimes it’s hard to even realize that our lives are being changed by the simple things we tend to do on a daily basis. Doing right, feeling right and thinking right sometimes is not enough, what is important is to live in the heart of God. The moment I surrendered all to him is the moment I connected my heart with His. Believe me; it changed my heart hence today I am at peace. I still say the joy you see through or in me is the least of the HAPPINESS I feel in my HEART. Search for the missing link in your heart, your life might be changed forever; I am a living proof. I am in love with the most essential person I have ever known. God’s heart in me and mine in Him is the source of the person I am.
Let the mystery unveil.
Chido
Note : Chido is one of the longest serving members of VOG and the sukumaRIZE movement. She writes for us once a week as a guest blogger. A professional graphic designer and semi-professional soccer player of repute, she currently captains Swaziland’s senior ladies soccer team. The views expressed in this article are testimonies, stories, daily thoughts and opinions from her walk with Jesus Christ.
